Some of my favorite quotes…

I would rather live my life as if there is a God and die to find out there isn’t, than live as if there isn’t and die to find out that there is. -Albert Camus-

Choose a job you love, and you will never have to work a day in your life. -Confucius-

Out of clutter find Simplicity; from discord find Harmony; In the middle of difficulty lies Opportunity. -Albert Einstein-

If we find ourselves with a desire that nothing in this world can satisfy, the most probable explanation is that we were made for another world.” ~ C.S. Lewis

Soft kitty, Warm kitty, Little ball of fur. Happy kitty, Sleepy kitty, Purr, purr, pur-r-r-r.

Hard kitty cold kitty knotted ball of fur Angry kitty cranky kitty grrr grrr grrr

mad kitty, angry kitty, little ball of claws. hissy kitty, spitty kitty, gnaw gnaw gnaw.

My High School: Mountain View our Alma Mater, we pledge our hearts to thee. Loyalty, truth and honor through defeat and victory. You stand a fortress of knowledge, a beacon in our lives. All Hail Viking Sons and Daughters, to the Purple, Gold and White.

Control your generosity when you’re dealing with a CHRONIC borrower.

Open Door Policy….Live simply. Love generously. Care deeply. Speak kindly. Leave the rest to God. -Ronald Reagan-

Before you assume, learn the facts. Before you judge, understand why. Before you hurt someone, feel. Before you speak, think.

“To all the girls who think they’re ugly because you’re not a size 0, you’re the beautiful one. It’s society who’s ugly.” ~Marilyn Monroe~

A woman’s soul is not in her waistline, it’s in the way she looks at you when she loves you. (Thank you ThreeGuesses)

Relationships are like glass. Sometimes it’s better to leave them broken than hurt yourself trying putting it back together

♥She felt him like a flame of desire. Burning through her soul. Tender yet powerful. Melting into the flame…she let herself go.

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God is GOOD!

All the time!

In February, I took the Notary Public class. In March, I took the Loan Signing Agent class. So now I am a Notary and Certified Loan Signing Agent. My dream after taking these classes was to start my own business. And it’s happening! I signed papers with Legal Zoom last week for my DBA (Doing Business As). I have already done a set of loan docs, a notary and loan closing docs…all in the space of three weeks. I know it doesn’t sound like a lot, but it’s a great start. God has been so faithful and has blessed us so much.

Matthew has been working for the past three weeks with a company and people that he likes. They are highly impressed with his warehouse knowledge and they are looking to advance him in the future. I have had Angels that the Lord put in my path to starting my business. I can’t thank them enough. But most of all, I am thankful for this opportunity that the Lord has given me to open my own business. To HIM be all the praise and glory. I feel so humbled that this is happening.

I chose Proverbs 31:26, ‘when she speaks, her words are wise, and she gives instructions with kindness’ as the verse on my business card as a reminder to be genuine in this business. There is a lot of deceitful and manipulative things that can go on with notary and loan paperwork. I wanted this as a reminder to not fall into those pits.

Below is the final edition of my business car. The background image is a photo that I took back in 2013.

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Life…

Life takes some twists and turns you never expect.

September 15, 2014 I was in a bad car accident. I went through physical therapy from November – December, which didn’t work. The physical therapist noticed a marked weakness in my left leg. In February, I had nerve testing in my left are and it was discovered that I have a pinched nerve. I was supposed to have nerve testing on my left leg to see what is going on with it. The neurologist also wanted to run an updated nerve test on my left arm to determine if the pinched nerve resolved on it’s own, or if I would need surgery to correct it.

Then the bubble popped. About 10 days before I was to have the nerve testing on my leg, Matthew got laid off. Then as of February 28th, we had no health insurance. He was off work for about 2 1/2 months. We praise God for the job that he has now.

June 2nd, the insurance adjuster for the other insurance company called to settle the case. Their initial offer was $16,000. I was like, ‘ummmm, no.’ They went up to $17,000. I asked for $20,000. She said that they couldn’t go that high. I sent an email detailing what I needed done in the future; nerve testing on left leg, updated nerve testing on left arm, possible surgeries, permanent bone bruise on the front of left shin that is numb on the surface, but I can feel the tingling of nerves under the bruise and not to mention a permanent neurological condition, Positional Vertigo. The insurance company was taking only the last 9 months into consideration, while I was look at future medical issues.

I didn’t hear from the adjuster for nearly a week. In the meantime, Matthew and I talked and we came to the conclusion that even $25,000 won’t be enough to cover tests, therapy, surgeries, etc. So after much thought, I did something that I didn’t want to do; I hired an attorney. I immediately took a liking to him over the phone. I went to see him on June 9th and signed paperwork for him to represent me.

On June 10th at 4:45pm, I received a call from the insurance company, so I let it go to voicemail. They were offering $20,000 as a settlement. She wanted to email me a release that I could sign, fax back and send the live signature by mail. She was going to be out of the office the following week, but was ‘hopeful’ that someone in the office would complete the settlement details. I notified my attorney and it turns out that a Letter of Representation had been faxed over to the insurance company between 3:00-3:30pm on June 10th. The insurance company already had the letter of rep, when the adjuster called with the $20,000 settlement. So, my attorney handled the situation. On June 19th I signed the paperwork for the neurologist, so hopefully nerve testing, MRIs, etc. will get started soon.

On a brighter note, I got my Live Scan done…TWICE. The first time, the FBI kicked my prints back, so I had to have the Live Scan done again. A week later I received an envelope with my Notary Commission. 🙂 I am trying to raise $400 for notary supplies and fees, then I can be sworn in as a Public Servant. I have to be sworn in by July 7th. I know that God will provide the funds.

I will update when there is more to tell.

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My Weight Loss Journey

Hi everyone. I’m Katt, from So. Cal. I was always chunky growing up. I never became obese until I became unexpectedly pregnant with our son. I didn’t know I was pregnant until I was almost 5 months along because I’d had major surgery while pregnant and it slowed my system down. Before surgery, I had lost about 25 pounds and was about 160-165 and looked good for my height, which is 5′, 6 1/2″ tall. I about 100lbs during my pregnancy. After our son was born, I had trouble losing the weight and then the health problems came; diabetes, sleep apnea, back issues, etc. I tried every diet under the sun, including diet pills with ephedra, which wound up causing me to have a permanent tachycardia condition which causes me to have orthostatic hypotension (low blood pressure with a high heart rate). In 2001, I was in a work-related car accident that disabled me. I found out that my uncle had the RNY procedure done and began talking to my doctor about it, while doing my own research. I went through 6 months of bariatric classes through Kaiser, had all 3 of my appointments in San Diego on the same day (surgeon, psych and internist). I was working at the time. I was let go on April 15, 2008. My husband told me to take the first available surgery date once I was cleared for surgery, so I did; April 29, 2008. This was April 21st. I hung up with the coordinator and had my ‘WTF did I just do?!?!’ moment. I had 8 days to get ready. EIGHT DAYS!!! My only requirement was that I NOT gain any weight in those 8 days. Surgery went well. To keep from doing an open procedure, Dr. Zorn did an extra lap incision. They kept me in the hospital for an extra day because my blood count dropped, and they took me off the heparin. Came home on Saturday, went to church on Sunday and had communion. I know…Bad Girl! But I was fine. Things were an adjustment. Six weeks after surgery, I became extremely dizzy and fell in the bedroom (carpeted). The next morning, I became extremely dizzy and passed out in the kitchen (tiled), breaking my right ankle in two places. I was severely dehydrated and low on protein. Dr. Zorn just kind of chuckled at my post-op, saying it was a typical newbie mistake and I wasn’t the first patient that this had happened too. Due to being in a wheelchair for nearly 15 weeks (crutches are EVIL!), my weight loss was slow. But I hit Onderland at my 1 year surgiversary. I lost a total of 108 pounds. The my world crumbled. In 2009, my husband decided he wanted a divorce. I said ok as we were having major issues at the time. I had no where to go, so we continued to live together for financial reasons. I backslid in my eating habits and regained 30 pounds. We reconciled at the end of 2012 and I have last almost 10 pounds of regain. I am still struggling due to mobility issues from a car accident last September. I love having the support of family and friends, but sometimes they don’t ‘get it’. I’m really glad to have a community of WLSers who have been through it all, that I can come to for advice, support and an ass-kicking if I need it. Highest weight: 295lbs, Lowest weight: 187lbs, Current weight: about 207lbs.

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My prayer…

Heavenly Father, forgive me of all my sins and cleanse me from all unrighteousness. Move the taste of sin far from me. I release every area of my life into Your hands and ask that You take complete control. Take control of my thoughts, so that my mind is filled with only things from above. Take control of my appetite so that I fill myself with only those things that nourish me and bring healing to my body. Take control of my physical body so that I don’t abuse it by quenching the Holy Spirit. Take control of my finances, so that I give back to You all that is Yours. Take control of my upcoming business so that I am an example of holiness and integrity in my community. Take control of my relationships so that Your name is glorified. Take control of me and Matthew, allowing us to be a witness to those close to us. Watch over Jason and Jodee, and bring them back to the path that You want them on. Open their eyes and hearts, showing them what You have in store for them, bot individually and as a married couple. Take control of my life as I submit and surrender to Your will and Your way. Lord, let my speech glorify You and bless those that I come into contact with. May my testimony be that You are well pleased with my life. Help me lay aside every sin and weight that threatens to separate me from You. Thank you, that when You forgive, You cast my sins into the sea of forgetfulness, NEVER TO BE BROUGHT UP AGAIN. In Jesus’ most precious name I pray, Amen.

Testimony About The Accident…

I’ve been asked a lot over the past 5 weeks how can I smile through all the pain from the accident. Here are a few answers that I’ve given.

#1: I smile because God protected me and everyone around me during the accident.

#2: Wallowing in bed or at home has never been an option for me. Even during the first weeks after the accident, when my calf muscles felt like they were being shredded to pieces and I could hardly walk at all, I HAD to get up and move no matter how much pain I was in. I was walking like Frankenstein’s Monster, But the point is, I was walking. I had to motivate myself to move, or the pain actually got worse. Even if it was just going out to the mailbox and back, I moved.

#3: If I wallowed or became unmotivated, it would keep God from working in me, in order to work through me. The details of the accident and how God’s hand was on me is such a powerful testimony.

Only one person had something negative to say when I told them about how God spared me. They said if God was truly with me, the accident never would have happened. My response was this: God WAS with me. It was Him who kept big rigs and other vehicles out of my path. It was Him who kept me from hitting a power transformer. Yes, He could have stopped the whole thing, BUT, He doesn’t interfere with Free Will. It was the fact that the driver of the car was #1: to close to me to stop in time and #2: she wasn’t paying attention to what was going on ahead of her.

Do I wish the accident had never happened? Absolutely! But it did happen and God spared my life, the life of the woman who hit me and the lives of everyone around me, as I was the only one who spun out of control across the lanes.

I was a little lonely after the accident, since I couldn’t go anywhere with out a car. I still freak out a bit on the freeway. Matthew and I went to Downtown Disney to meet up with an artist friend and her husband. When we left, I had Matthew drive. There were quite a few times that I would gasp because I felt he was too close to the car in front of us, or there was a car too close to the rear of my car (that’s a HUGE one for me at the moment), or I’d see something out of the corner of my eye. All typical reflexes from being in an accident. Matthew asked if I did that when I was driving. My response? No, because then I’m in control of driving.

I think I’m doing a bit better. We were on the road most of the day this past Saturday and I don’t think I let out a gasp more than a couple times. But, it will take time to be comfortable driving on the freeway again.

So, there you have it. Another piece of my testimony regarding the accident. I never had a doubt that God was with me. I will never doubt that God is with me always.

September 15, 2014…

It was a bright, beautiful, dry, sunny day. I was heading to my doctor’s office for follow-ups on lab work and an intestinal virus that hospitalized me for 2 days due to dehydration.

I was driving on the westbound 60 freeway, in the fast lane. I was listening to some really good worship music, Mandisa’s Overcomer. I noticed that traffic was slowing down and coming to a stop. There were big rigs and cars all around me. I remember that there was a black/dark gray and silver Hyundai at least 2 car lengths in front of me. I began slowing down. I was doing about 25 mph and still slowing down when I looked at my rear-view mirror. What I saw next truly scared me. I saw a red car coming up behind me, not slowing down and not stopping. I later found out that the car was a 2015 Kia Forte. I watched as this car slammed into the rear of my car, doing between 50-60mph. I lost control of my car and went across all lanes of traffic. I can’t tell you how many ‘donuts’ I did across the lanes. At the time, I didn’t know if I had taken anyone out with me. I eventually went across the embankment and the rear end of my car hit the sound/retaining wall, where I finally came to rest, right between the pole that holds the freeway signs and a power transformer. The impact was so hard that it knocked my shoes off, my glasses landed between my seat and the driver’s door and the hair clip I was wearing broke into two pieces when I hit the back of my head on the headrest. I had no concept of time and how long the whole situation lasted. I remember panicking, being in tears and hyperventilating. The first responder happened to be a police office on his way to work. He came over and asked if I was ok. I said no and asked if I had hit anyone as I went across the lanes. He said he had watched the whole thing and no one else was hit. The first words out of my mouth were, ‘thank God!’. I remember seeing 2-3 young men (early-mid twenties, maybe) on the shoulder. I know one had called the accident in, but I don’t know if they actually witnessed the accident. I didn’t get their names and there were no eyewitness statements in the accident report.

I was transported to the hospital, where I was given a small dose of Morphine to take the edge off the pain. I injured my neck, mid to lower back and my left leg. They took a CT scan of my neck and in addition to the herniated disc between C2/C3 from an accident in 2001, I now have an injury at C6/C7. Wonderful! (insert sarcasm here). They X-rayed my back and my left leg. My legs felt like the muscles had been ripped to shreds. I barely walked out of the ER about 5 hours after the accident. For almost 2 weeks I was walking like Frankenstein’s monster because I couldn’t bend my knees. I did however, with Matthew’s help the next day, make it to a job interview. I didn’t get the job, but that’s ok. I was/am bruised on my left side; my upper arm/shoulder area, forearm and my left shin. The bruises are fading, the pain is not. I am also having neurological problems with my neck. When I lay on my right and left sides, the room begins spinning.

I picked up the accident report last week, and the other driver, by her own admission, stated that she was going 60mph when she hit me. My car has been totaled out at a little over $4000. I am waiting for the other driver’s insurance to contact me so that we can get the ball rolling on the accident. I purchased another car on September 27th. It’s a 2004 Pontiac Grand Am. It needs some work, but al in all is a great car. I have been given a referral for physical therapy and I am waiting to see if my doctor is going to refer me to a neurologist.

Everyone seems to be amazed that I wasn’t hospitalized after seeing the pictures of my car. All I can say is that it’s ALL God. God was there with me. He kept me from hitting any other vehicles when I went across the lanes, as well as, keeping them from hitting me. He kept me from hitting the power transformer and the sign pole. The enemy tried to take me out, to get me to turn my back on God. It didn’t/won’t work. My faith in God is even stronger now.

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Suicide

I wanted to post this in light of Robin Williams’ suicide yesterday.

I was just sent this by the To Write Love On Her Arms website…Please, if you’re thinking of doing something drastic, something irreversible, reach out to someone for help. Life is too precious to throw away by suicide. It’s a permanent solution to a temporary problem. Reach out to friends, family, counselors or the National Suicide Prevention Lifeline 1-800-273-8255.

 There is Still Some Time.
 by Jamie Tworkowski

 If you feel too much, there’s still a place for you here.

 If you feel too much, don’t go.

 If this world is too painful, stop and rest.

 It’s okay to stop and rest.

 If you need a break, it’s okay to say you need a break.

 This life – it’s not a contest, not a race, not a performance, not a thing that you win.

 It’s okay to slow down.

 You are here for more than grades, more than a job, more than a promotion, more than keeping up, more than getting by.

 This life is not about status or opinion or appearance.

 You don’t have to fake it.

 You do not have to fake it.

 Other people feel this way too.

 If your heart is broken, it’s okay to say your heart is broken.

 If you feel stuck, it’s okay to say you feel stuck.

 If you can’t let go, it’s okay to say you can’t let go.

 You are not alone in these places.

 Other people feel how you feel.

 You are more than just your pain. You are more than wounds, more than drugs, more than death and silence.

 There is still some time to be surprised.

 There is still some time to ask for help.

 There is still some time to start again.

 There is still some time for love to find you.

 It’s not too late.

 You’re not alone.

 It’s okay – whatever you need and however long it takes – it’s okay.

 It’s okay.

 If you feel too much, there’s still a place for you here.

 If you feel too much, don’t go.

 There is still some time.

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Rhubarb Strawberry Crumb Bars

This is a recipe that my friend, Jenn posted on her blog. I LOVE rhubarb. I especially LOVE strawberries. So THIS is a definite ‘must try’. Way to go, Jenn! 🙂

Berrylicious Treats & Eats

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This recipe was originally found at A Farmgirl’s Dabbles.  However, her recipe only makes a 9×9 pan, and that is just not enough!  I actually made two 9×13 pans: one to take to work to share with coworkers, and another to keep at home for roommies/friends/me.

You can sub out the strawberries with whatever you like, including just doubling up on more rhubarb!

Ingredients: (makes TWO 9×13 pans)

Streusel:

  • 2 sticks unsalted butter, melted
  • 2 cups dark brown sugar, packed
  • 1 tsp salt
  • 2.5 cups all purpose flour

Fruit layer:

  • 1 pound strawberries, sliced
  • 4 cups rhubarb, diced
  • 1/4 cup dark brown sugar
  • 1/2 cup all purpose flour

Cake layer:

  • 3 sticks unsalted butter, melted
  • 3 cups powdered sugar
  • 6 large eggs
  • 1 tbsp vanilla extract
  • 2.5 cups all purpose flour
  • 1/2 tbsp baking powder
  • 1 tsp salt

Directions:

  1. Preheat oven to 350.  Spray TWO 9×13 cake pans with…

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